Heartbroken

Yesterday was a really hard day for me. I got really really emotional when Owen was born so I quite surprised that I hadn't been crying at the drop of a hat, but yesterday I did have a few moments. Yesterday Owen was still transitioning to the changes in our household and he was totally giving me the silent treatment. It was like he was saying if you get a new baby then all I need is Daddy and I don't need you! It was breaking my heart! He didn't want anything to do with me, not that I could really do much playing with him, but I sure tried. There are things I can do like read to him and play peek-a-boo and talk with him, but I can't pick him up I can't put him in his highchair or crib. I can't chase after him or get on the floor with him, but Daddy can and Daddy did. Daddy played with Owen so much and I'm so happy that he has this time off to be with his boys. He deserves it! Of course Daddy was just loving this behavior because Owen is normally a Mommy's boy, but Mommy was feel very rejected! On top of that Jack was having a hard time nursing so I was feeling pretty incompetent as a Mom all around. I finally called the Lactation Specialist at the hospital and got some great advise. I thought it would be easy the second time around since I know what I'm doing, but the thing is Jack isn't Owen and he doesn't know what he's doing so he has to be taught. All is better in the nursing department now so that good. Also Owen has gotten over giving me the silent treatment in fact he's just doing great all around. I really think being a big brother and sharing Mommy and Daddy is going to be really good for him.